What If -?

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What if I wake up tomorrow to find I’ve hit a block so hard that there’s no coming back? What if, I can’t write anymore?

It’s a hypothetical question, but a wake up call as well. Because I don’t have a contingency plan. I don’t know what I’d do if I don’t write. I’m lucky my job involves writing and my hobby is writing. But if I can’t do the one thing I can do, what would I do then?

I would try singing. But I make people bleed from their ears.

Maybe I’d just go back to studying. I like studying, I like poring over books and reading between lines. I like reading great writers, and I’d revel in words, delve deep into the mystical world of literary puns and illiterate goons.

I’d wake up each morning, breathe in words — from Shakespeare and Milton to Doyle and Christie. I’d bury myself in fresh prints and vintage tints, reading in bed, every day — on Valentine’s too.

And while turning the pages, I’d whistle my favourite tunes — and no one can tell me it’s not a girl-thing to do .  I’d sing when I feel like it, I’d read aloud, I’d narrate, I’d play the part of the main character and test my vocals; “Romeo! Wherefore art thou Romeo?”

I’d read book after book, I’d turn page after page, I’d inhale in morsels, the ink on those books, and get drunk in the pleasure of alliteration and word manipulation.

And then I’d realise romance isn’t my forte, and I’d pick something closer to my heart; because I know, “something wicked this way comes.”

And once I step over my Rubicon, there’s no return. And I’d be for eternity under the influence of the greatest drugs known to mankind; “words, words, words.”

A Sight to Remember

Through the open window,
She saw the shepherd boy
Honouring his sheep-duty
Herding them to safety

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Through the open window,
She saw the clergyman
Off to church with pride
With purpose in every stride

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Through the open window,
She saw husbands chatter
Bidding their daily farewell
To wives who’d await arrival

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Through the open window,
She saw smiling kids
Wandering off to school
Moaning it’s not so cool

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Within the open window,
She saw her reflection
Chained to prison walls
Awaiting her final calls.

The Love Process

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They faced each other

Smiles so true and pure

Eyes full of compassion

Trust growing within.


They faced each other

Smiles reaching ears

Eyes crinkled in truth

Love seeping through.


They faced each other

Smiles just a shadow

Eyes boring into the other

Hatred reeking through.


They faced each other

Smiles set and fixed

Eyes wide in hope

Dupe in a handshake.


They faced each other

Smiles set as friends

Eyes reflecting past

Bittersweet in breakup.