The security

โ€œHey Liv, did you see the new security guy?โ€

I looked up from my desk, mouth full of noodles. It was another lunch-at-the-desk day. Iโ€™d just hit submit on the report Iโ€™d been working all morning, and had turned to stuff my face into my meal-prepped lunchbox. 

Spaghetti in a sautรฉed tomato-mushroom sauce. Homemade food had never tasted so good. Perhaps Pinterest wasnโ€™t kiddingโ€”maybe cooking on Sundays is a better idea than brunch with friends. I even managed to get the laundry done, and folded it for good measure.

I shook my head at Jesseโ€™s raised eyebrows. Sheโ€™s not the kind whoโ€™d bring up the security guy unless it was important. Perhaps he was cute.

โ€œNope.โ€ I supplied swallowing the carby goodness. โ€œWhy?โ€

โ€œItโ€™s an old man!โ€ She almost shrieked, sitting down on my desk, despite knowing how much I hated that. But she didnโ€™t seem to be in her right mind today. Her usually straight black hair was bouncing off her shoulders in curls. Her mascara was a little too much to look at, and sheโ€™d force-matched her tiered skirt with a pair of high heels she looked terribly uncomfortable in. But she was gleaming with joy. Unable to figure it out, I decided to wait for her flamboyant explanation later.

โ€œSo what if itโ€™s an old chap?โ€

Everyone needed money. Itโ€™s possible that this man didnโ€™t have enough retirement funds. Or his kids werenโ€™t around to help him. After all, Iโ€™d seen a lot of older folks struggling to make a living. It was sad, sure, but certainly didnโ€™t warrant a hiatus during lunch. 

I went back to my noodles, ignoring the penciled eyebrows glowering at me. After a while, she gave up and went back to her seat. And I turned to the pile of reports that still needed finishing, verifying, and submitting.

Sigh. Itโ€™s going to be a long day.

For the rest of the afternoon, I carefully avoided running into Jesse in the bathroom or the vending machine. I knew she ached to discuss the old security guy. It wouldnโ€™t be the first timeโ€”she imagined herself an upstanding citizen being the change she wanted to see. A couple of weeks ago, I’d spent an hour listening to her lament the fate of migrants working casual jobs and unconventional shifts. All because she was drunk on a Friday night and ordered pizza. Her delivery guy was an African hoping for a permanent stay.

My escape was short lived. Just as I stepped out in the terrace, glad that Iโ€™d finally completed the weekโ€™s backlog, I jumped. 

โ€œI spoke to him.โ€

Not seeing her crawl up behind me, I turned ready to punch her shrugging childish face. Before I did however, she continued, eyes rounding in sadness. โ€œHe was missing his daughter. He took the job so that heโ€™s not bored and lonely at home anymore.โ€

She was Puss in Boots begging to go with Shrek.

My frustration deflated. It was no use fighting itโ€”she wouldnโ€™t rest until sheโ€™d gleaned a response from me. 

โ€œYes,โ€ I rubbed my stiff neck hoping sheโ€™d take a hint. โ€œThat is sad.โ€

Thankfully, that was the end of our conversation. I went back to doing some light reading and recipe hunting before heading home to Netflix.

As the office doors swung shut behind me, I saw him. A tall man in a khaki suit. He didn’t see me approach himโ€”something through the window seemed to have caught his eye and he peered, his shoulders hunched.

โ€œHave a good night!โ€ I faked a cheer, pressing the elevator button. I was exhausted and famished.

He swung around, taken aback. 

โ€œDad!โ€

Give me a break!

kicked
around the room
from one end to another
a mindless show of spinning
like a hunter chasing rabbits
a child its dreams
as a runner on a winter morn
out of breathย 
wheezing
rasping for air
for a pauseโ€”
from the cold chase
gosh, what a wild goose

shoved around for fun
serving bullies all along
a plaything for the kids
to get โ€˜em off the parents
who pine for a quiet night

this way and that
unclear whatโ€™s what
blindly running
a duty of the distraction
thatโ€™s done, only ends
when the gameโ€™s over
or footballers tire

Distracted

โ€œI hate youโ€
you declared
stormed out
into the setting sun
that winterโ€™s eve
through glass doors
away from me,
my reaching hand

I turned back
silent
oh, my child
I love you still
youโ€™ll come around
after all,
arenโ€™t mothers and daughters
just fighting cocks?

it was something sillyโ€”
but my dear,
people will dally
you were right to worry
tensionโ€™s high
big day nearby
complain, whineโ€”fine
pray, lay off wine!

โ€œdrive safeโ€
text, less invasive
I hoveredโ€ฆ
ah, beautiful shoes
perfect wedding night
complements your white
clicked my phone off
distracted.

Sought luxury for your feet
as you lost luxury of feet.