As child starved all night
tugging at its mother’s heart
laps, laps, lake water
Tag: parenting
The security
โHey Liv, did you see the new security guy?โ
I looked up from my desk, mouth full of noodles. It was another lunch-at-the-desk day. Iโd just hit submit on the report Iโd been working all morning, and had turned to stuff my face into my meal-prepped lunchbox.
Spaghetti in a sautรฉed tomato-mushroom sauce. Homemade food had never tasted so good. Perhaps Pinterest wasnโt kiddingโmaybe cooking on Sundays is a better idea than brunch with friends. I even managed to get the laundry done, and folded it for good measure.
I shook my head at Jesseโs raised eyebrows. Sheโs not the kind whoโd bring up the security guy unless it was important. Perhaps he was cute.
โNope.โ I supplied swallowing the carby goodness. โWhy?โ
โItโs an old man!โ She almost shrieked, sitting down on my desk, despite knowing how much I hated that. But she didnโt seem to be in her right mind today. Her usually straight black hair was bouncing off her shoulders in curls. Her mascara was a little too much to look at, and sheโd force-matched her tiered skirt with a pair of high heels she looked terribly uncomfortable in. But she was gleaming with joy. Unable to figure it out, I decided to wait for her flamboyant explanation later.
โSo what if itโs an old chap?โ
Everyone needed money. Itโs possible that this man didnโt have enough retirement funds. Or his kids werenโt around to help him. After all, Iโd seen a lot of older folks struggling to make a living. It was sad, sure, but certainly didnโt warrant a hiatus during lunch.
I went back to my noodles, ignoring the penciled eyebrows glowering at me. After a while, she gave up and went back to her seat. And I turned to the pile of reports that still needed finishing, verifying, and submitting.
Sigh. Itโs going to be a long day.
For the rest of the afternoon, I carefully avoided running into Jesse in the bathroom or the vending machine. I knew she ached to discuss the old security guy. It wouldnโt be the first timeโshe imagined herself an upstanding citizen being the change she wanted to see. A couple of weeks ago, I’d spent an hour listening to her lament the fate of migrants working casual jobs and unconventional shifts. All because she was drunk on a Friday night and ordered pizza. Her delivery guy was an African hoping for a permanent stay.
My escape was short lived. Just as I stepped out in the terrace, glad that Iโd finally completed the weekโs backlog, I jumped.
โI spoke to him.โ
Not seeing her crawl up behind me, I turned ready to punch her shrugging childish face. Before I did however, she continued, eyes rounding in sadness. โHe was missing his daughter. He took the job so that heโs not bored and lonely at home anymore.โ
She was Puss in Boots begging to go with Shrek.
My frustration deflated. It was no use fighting itโshe wouldnโt rest until sheโd gleaned a response from me.
โYes,โ I rubbed my stiff neck hoping sheโd take a hint. โThat is sad.โ
Thankfully, that was the end of our conversation. I went back to doing some light reading and recipe hunting before heading home to Netflix.
As the office doors swung shut behind me, I saw him. A tall man in a khaki suit. He didn’t see me approach himโsomething through the window seemed to have caught his eye and he peered, his shoulders hunched.
โHave a good night!โ I faked a cheer, pressing the elevator button. I was exhausted and famished.
He swung around, taken aback.
โDad!โ
Give me a break!
kicked
around the room
from one end to another
a mindless show of spinning
like a hunter chasing rabbits
a child its dreams
as a runner on a winter morn
out of breathย
wheezing
rasping for air
for a pauseโ
from the cold chase
gosh, what a wild goose
shoved around for fun
serving bullies all along
a plaything for the kids
to get โem off the parents
who pine for a quiet night
this way and that
unclear whatโs what
blindly running
a duty of the distraction
thatโs done, only ends
when the gameโs over
or footballers tire
Birthing
prising away
protecting tether
plops baby
*Experimenting with modern haiku. It’s funโtry it sometime.
Distracted
โI hate youโ
you declared
stormed out
into the setting sun
that winterโs eve
through glass doors
away from me,
my reaching hand
I turned back
silent
oh, my child
I love you still
youโll come around
after all,
arenโt mothers and daughters
just fighting cocks?
it was something sillyโ
but my dear,
people will dally
you were right to worry
tensionโs high
big day nearby
complain, whineโfine
pray, lay off wine!
โdrive safeโ
text, less invasive
I hoveredโฆ
ah, beautiful shoes
perfect wedding night
complements your white
clicked my phone off
distracted.
Sought luxury for your feet
as you lost luxury of feet.
