The Lonely Job

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They say writing is a lonely job.

Each time I hear someone say that, I feel thrilled. Being a loner by default and a wannabe writer/novelist, it was like having my wildest passions prophesied.

That’s what I like about the writing world; being a writer would mean that you could shun human companionship, and still sound sane to most people. Of course, for some people, writers are lunatics — alone or not. But that’s irrelevant.

My point being, I was excited to constantly hear assurances that the best profession for me would be writing — something I enjoy doing anyway.

And since more and more people understand — or at least try to — the relationship between a writer and solitude, I shifted my daily schedule to include a lot of solitary bliss.

Only it wasn’t all bliss.

I loved being alone. I had a lot of time with my own head, talking to myself, reflecting, wondering, hatching ideas, cooking for myself, and even trying my hand at photography.

But the writing wasn’t coming out as much as I would have hoped. Oh, I was writing all right. I was writing every day — but it was a struggle, I had to wrack my brains for inspiration each day — which became tougher by the day.

Then one day, we planned a movie night. I got to our rendezvous point and suddenly realized that it had been months since I had been outdoors at that time, and among so many people. It wasn’t late; the sun had just set and the winter sky had darkened earlier than usual.

That’s where I saw — people. Oh, and lots of them too. It was the local bus stop and with people thronging around — it was so surprising. Sure, I see people when I walk home after work, but that’s a limited view of mostly quiet residential areas. I would actually see as many street dogs as people.

Seriously.

But that night, I could see what I had been missing all along. Just by observing people’s faces, I could see thousands of stories, waiting to be penned. They all had lives and incidents happening — how inspiring would it be to observe people’s behaviour in a public place, and weave a fictitious tale out of it?

It was an eye-opener. Though I’m not a fan of crowded spaces and heaving faces, I’ve realised that people are my highest motivators. I glean my creativity from the varying expressions of everyday life.

And I need more of that.

Where do you guys draw inspiration?

Rekindling Thoughts

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I’m not a fan of smoking, but when I came across this piece by Ayn Rand, I couldn’t help but agree completely.

I’ve never realized what powerful species we are. Not only did we discover fire, but also mastered the art of taming it at the tip of two fingers – one of them which is the middle one. How simple it is for us to tame such a strong destroyer – we are not only powerful but also a threat, to ourselves and the rest of the world. Some day, we could end up stripping the universe of its essentials. “A spot of fire” – incredible how it can breed chaos and great thoughts.

What I’ve Learnt From Eating Alone

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I eat alone. Not only because I’m comfortable with it, but also because no one else is comfortable with my schedule.

Breakfast at 6 am. Lunch at noon. Dinner at 7 pm.

From where I come, that’s insane. But that’s how I am, and I don’t expect anyone to comply with my schedule either. I’m perfectly fine with eating alone.

I’ve been following this schedule for some time now, and have come across a lot fine myths about fine-dining.

People’s natural reaction towards lone-diners is that they are lonely and depressed. Some people even go as far as giving lone-eaters some company, believing they’re doing us a favor.

But here’s the truth: eating alone is a cherished art.

When I started, I was a little self-conscious. I was uncomfortably aware of what I was eating, and sometimes the food felt really squishy in my mouth — a sensation that had nothing to do with the food.

As time went by though, I became more confident. Yes, people do raise eyebrows and concerned looks, but it doesn’t bother me anymore. Because I’m too involved in my meal.

Eating alone, I’ve noticed a few changes in myself and my eating habits.

  1. I now eat slower and more mindful than I used to. This is odd, because people usually say you eat faster when you’re alone. I look at my plate, take in the meal, and then taste it. And as I eat, I sometimes try to figure out the ingredients and the preparation of the gravies. Since I make my dinner, I like to try out new stuff.
  2. I eat my full. Another paradox. I’ve seen in a diet article, they recommended eating alone because the anxiousness makes you eat less. I successfully busted this myth. I indulge in my meals, and being alone only gives me more freedom to spend time on myself.
  3. No one to satisfy. With only myself at the table, I don’t have to engage in conversations and other social niceties. I can focus on what matters most, and be rid of the compulsive need to agree, or provide an opinion in discussions I hardly care.
  4. What table manners? You know that awkward moment when you’ve just finished a great meal, and all you want to do is lick the remains off your plate, but you’re worried what your fellow dinners might think? Well, I don’t have to worry about that at all! And it’s the best part of a meal; savouring the last.

There’s something much more important than these though. For the first time in my life, I was appreciating what I ate. This would never happen if I were surrounded by a bunch of over-excited people talking about the latest movie.

I learnt to appreciate the art of cooking and the science of blending flavors. South Indian cuisine thrives on a combination spices and, here I was, experiencing it all by myself.

Nothing can compare to the thrill of it. Anyone here who’s a lone-eater?

Parting Ways

Eyes averted, they took different paths.

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Another ambiguous short story for my collection of Flash Fiction.

#Day30 of the National Blog Posting Month and I’m proud to have finished what I started. It’s been one hell of a month, and though it was a bit tough posting every day, it was a great experience. I’ll try to keep up to the routine as much as I can.

Thank you all for reading, liking and commenting. And a special thanks to everyone who came back day after day for more of my blog. It was a huge encouragement to see the graph grow.

Hope you all had a great November, Movember, NaNoWriMo, NaBloPoMo – whatever endeavour you took up this month!

Let Chaos Reign!

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I was aimlessly browsing through Pinterest when I saw this quote attributed to Oscar Wilde. It, at first, seemed off-hand and simple, but after a while of staring at it, I could relate it to anything I could thing of.

How easily we put a limit to things, overlooking the obvious, ‘why’. We’ve always been taught to control emotions – anger and desire in particular – and not let them get out of hand. What if we just let the chaos reign within? Why limit our potential by labeling ourselves?

Well, Oscar Wilde knew his words.

National Blog Posting Month – #Day29