“What else?” She asks.
For the second time today.
The first time,
I’d stood by the window
basking, in the stream
shooting from the horizon.
Full in my face,
filling untinted glasses
with blinding brightness
and warmth.
Like a steam towel on an airplane
soothing, it sat on my eyes,
closed, I’d surrendered
just a little longer…
almost forgetting
mother’s “what else?”
I’d jerked at her shakiness
“Hmm… Nothing else, ma.”
Clicking off,
promising another call
in eight hours.
As a pebble in a stream,
tumbling, tumulting at tasks
delayed progress
time flew in my world—
froze in hers.
As empty picture frame,
life hung around.
Hollow in the middle,
nothingness spread wide,
countable greys now blacks
once page-flipping fingers
frayed, shiver at a touch
shrill soccer mum’s throat
now trill in weak trebles.
“What else?” she asks me.
Stumped, “How’s the weather ma?”
I repeat.
The Chaos Within 